ashtray of kisses

Saturday, March 31

To say i don't care and actually not care.
To pretend none of these ever happened.
That will be deception to oneself.
Tell me how do you do it.

BREATHED @ 12:38 AM

Thursday, March 29

So i finally watched 300.
Indeed alot of breasts. But yep, a good show.
With the kiddo plus the neighbour, we made like stupid random jokes throughout the show.
And the kiddo got me pretty stuff from cambodia. I LIKE :)
Met up with the rest at balcony for dinner/drinking.
My grilled chicken in mushroom sauce. Hoho.
And the ham bacon mo something stuff.
And the daiquiri, martinis, corona and blah blahs.
Of course the best part was the catching up.
The people whom i'll never get sick of :)
So long since we had a proper dinner plus chilling out session.
More to come soon! :)

BREATHED @ 1:42 AM

Monday, March 26

Think happy thoughts.

I think i'm getting hyped up over the slightest things now.
I think i'm starting to talk really fast to people lately.
I think i'm beginning to talk more and more.
I think i smile to myself unknowingly though it makes me look like some retard.
I think my mood's been pretty good recently.
I think i'm looking forward to every single day of the holidays.
I think i realise that the least you expect, the better you feel when it actually happens.
I think i'm not silly, I'm just-

Happy :)

BREATHED @ 3:46 AM

Saturday, March 24

I know i'm getting really random.

I need an extension of the holidays. It's ending too soon.
24 hours in a day is seriously not enough to do everything.
The buddy is busy with work. Hello, we've got many many more movies to catch.
I know i'm slow cause i'm only watching 300 this wednesday.
Work is killing me somehow. Or rather, the company is.
You know how people always say meet up and meet up and meet up.
But in the end, its always all talk and no action.
And how all our work schedules clash. It's so difficult to meet my mellie babe! Rar.
And i need to meet the michie to shop, but schedule clashes as well.
Worse, ptco can never get to meet.
And did i mention that tuesdays are love for this holiday :)))
And i'm contemplating whether i should go dye my hair jet black.
Hmmms.
And neek, if you're reading. Don't be too upset.
Cause chayse will go to somewhere where he will be happy i'm sure (:

The way you smile, the way you touch my face.
There's something that you do i can't explain.
'Cause you leave me speechless.

BREATHED @ 11:03 PM

Thursday, March 22

Happy one and a half years michie and am! (:

BREATHED @ 1:17 AM

Monday, March 19

still ashtray of kisses

You know how bloody sickening it is to not sleep at this time and have stupid thoughts running through your mind.
I want to call someone and rant but for obvious reasons i am not doing so.
Sometimes when we do so much, all we want is to be appreciated at the end of the day. By the slightest acknowledgement, anything.
It'll be so relieving to know.
The pressure to hold it all in when i badly want to scream that i care.
Because with any slightest mistake, i might just lose it. I'm afraid.
Not knowing what is the truth what is not,
Not knowing when does it matter when does it not.
I don't like to keep quiet when i do have things to say.
And i hate it when you think i have nothing to say.
Because the fact is, i do.
Acting, this has got to be the worse feeling ever.

Just let the reason be love.

BREATHED @ 3:03 AM

Saturday, March 17

company i love.

It was really mass bonding session friday night at zouk.
With kok, jboy, kev, cass, christine, peckjoo, raj, irene, eugena, weilin, shirleen and co.
Finally caught up with christine after so long of not meeting up.
Music was great at around 2 plus.
Company, needless to say, was the love.
BUT. the crowd really sucked.
There was this bunch of ah lian lookalike people trying to fight for space on the dance floor and they were shoving and pushing and dancing with super huge actions just to get more space.
And we got elbowed countless times.
Left early cause some had to leave and we were all pissed at the crowd.
But still, the night was good good good cause of the people who went (:
Oh, and i met the bestie there too. Haha.
More partying with this group of people please! (:

These people are my love now (:

BREATHED @ 11:48 PM

Friday, March 16

I need moolah.

Warning: A very random entry

You know how ugly singaporeans can get when it comes to stuff like freebies and getting onto buses or flagging cabs etc etc. Yesterday i was waiting for the bus to go meet my michie. It was a damn long wait, so when the bus finally came. The people shoved and pushed and squeezed just to try to board the bus. i think i got pushed by many different aunties and uncles just by standing at the side waiting for them to board. Hello! You people need to learn how to queue.

Caught up with the the michie. And i think i really love the michie (:
And babe, you hair don't look so bad okay.

It's zouk with the lovelies tonight!
Plus christine plus kevin ho plus raj and co.
Yes, im looking forward! (:
And mister j boy, you have 6 hours from now to get rid of that flu bug,
Cause you need to party one last time before you enlist!

This 2 month holiday has got to be the best one ever.

Results are out.
Not too bad. But my stupid freehand drawing got a bloody C!
But i kind of expected it because that tutor kept dissing my drawings.
But nevermind, say bye bye to electives.
And i have a resolution for next semester.
I am going to practice the damn calculus super often.
Yes, i can keep to that i'm sure :)

A few more months to internship meaning the end of my utopia days.
I need to get my lazy ass up and start securing my attachment.
Someone push me.

And i suddenly have the craving for cartel's breaded fish and egg sandwich.
And and and bon bon rocher ice cream. Meaning, i need to visit xiaojun soon.

Two songs i can't stop listening to.
Beyonce- listen
Justin timberlake- Chop me up

Oh oh, and ptco outing on 31st says O.
People please confirm.

Lastly.
I'm really saddened cause i lost a pair of shorts and a white top in the process of moving.

Enough of randomness.
Okay. That's about it.

BREATHED @ 2:42 PM

Thursday, March 15

long overdued

Here's another go at it.
Honestly, i only have a vague idea of what triggered all this.
I don't know why but i kept getting reminded of it makes no sense
It may be on impulse it may not be, i don't know.
But i must say. That is pretty upsetting to know.
Because all i was trying to put across to you is that-
Despite our differences, no matter how little time we fork out,
Things are still the same. For me at least.
So if anything that doesn't exist anymore, is prolly your faith in me.
So don't ask me why i blog about you. That's because you still matter.
And yes, it may show how much i understand. But i'm still trying.

Take care.

BREATHED @ 3:47 AM

Wednesday, March 14

sweet sweeter sweetest.

BREATHED @ 1:33 AM

Monday, March 12

We should all be happier people.

Seems like the remaining of the week is looking good.
With plans up ahead. I'm looking forward.
FRIDAY my dearests! :D

Seems like everyone's feeling down lately.
To those who are slogging their asses off to meet ends. Hang in there! It'll be over soon.
To those who are upset over results/relationships. Cheer up, because things will get better.

OKAY.

Met with the kiddo today.
He's flying off in 4 hours time to cambodia for his mission trip.
I'm super proud of him (:

stupid cheeky face he has.

BREATHED @ 11:55 PM

Sunday, March 11

I think doctor must have made a mistake.
I swear i looked like a boy when i was little.

You can try spot me.
It's easy. The most hideous and sloppy looking one.
Oh but look at kaixiong. Muaha. First guy from the left.

No skirts when i was a kiddo!
And there, i really look like a boy right.

BREATHED @ 12:07 AM

Saturday, March 10

I need to learn how to turn those waterworks off.
I think i show my emotions too easily nowadays.
Something is wrong. I used to have quite a good cover up.
I'm stressing myself and people around me up and this is bad.
Yes, one more resolution up.
Fer knows i can't do casual for shit. But yes, i'm gonna learn.
Cause everything will work out fine.

BREATHED @ 10:45 PM

Friday, March 9

Tribe

Compete in the rituals to become the new chief of the tribe.

Play this free game now!!

Right, as i am still waiting for someone to wake up.
I've been stuck at this game for hours.
Shows the degree of my boredom.
Go play.

BREATHED @ 10:28 PM

to the left to the left.

This has got to be the best tertiary fling ever.
I hereby declare this bunch my favourite people to club with.
Happening shit (:
Met long lost friends and friends of friends.
Good crowd, great music, perfect company.
We should do this more often. Hoho.

Jeryle, raj, cass, kok, shirleen, "marrisa", fizz, fizz's friend, and sorry-i-forgot-your-name.
I LIKE (:

BREATHED @ 3:04 AM

Wednesday, March 7

Let's get these teen hearts beating faster! (:

Starworld is officially the favourite channel now.
I'm becoming such a tv junkie.
Someone download and burn/buy/get the falcon beach series for me please!
I'm on super impulse buying nowadays. This is bad.
I was accompanying the mom for some grocery shopping just now and i bought another top from mango.
I think i need a financial planner and start proper saving.
ANYWAY.
Tertiary fling (again) five tomorrow.
It's the company i'm excited about (:
Can't wait.
Ooh, and some sweetie bought me an endless supply of my favourite sweet.
Thank you (:

BREATHED @ 11:13 PM

For good times and bad times.

I remember asking someone to define what best friends were.
She said, best friends accept and lets you have other friends.
Vague, but i guess somewhat it makes some sense.
It doesn't mean that when i am not physically around, we don't care about each other anymore.
Nor does it mean that when i choose to meet someone else on my free day, the friendship isn't in my priority list anymore.
I guess best friends don't need constant reassurance do they?
I'm sorry anyway. Cheer up and take care.

And i thought that the mother's pms days were bad enough.
I now dare say, nothing's worse than the father's pms days.

BREATHED @ 12:16 AM

Tuesday, March 6

I found these while i was unpacking.

Heaps of it, everywhere.
And that's not even everything.
Haha, those were the days.
ANYWAY.
New resolutions up.
I'm gonna get everything back in place for now.
And we'll all be happier people for now.

cause you make me smile like we're trippin' over rainbows again (:

BREATHED @ 12:16 AM

Sunday, March 4

say hello to new neighbours.

Seriously never been any more tired than this.
All the running up and down.
Lugging pulling and pushing.
And this new house's a little creepy i don't know.
Dammit, no direct bus to school.
No more hkcafe but there's boon tong kee. haha.
I need to go to ikea and get a dustbin because i lost mine in the process of moving.
So my dearests, are you coming to paint my room for me? :D

BREATHED @ 9:25 PM

Friday, March 2

cause' you make me smile like we're tripping over rainbows.

BREATHED @ 2:26 AM