Sunday, February 25
breathe.me
If friendship to you people was measured by how much we could benefit one another in the process, then i guess i can't be a friend then.
Funny how you realise that those you thought you could stick through with, aren't really those you could stick through with.
Somehow, i feel it's time to drift.
Work alone got me thinking non stop and i don't like it.
All these things i want to tell every single one of you.
But yet there's every reason that forbids me to.
The guilt trip that i have to take as another day passes.
All this needs to stop.
And.
I'm withdrawing from the bangkok trip due to various reasons.
Surprising, but not so surprising, i don't feel the pinch. yet.
To make up for it, i need to keep my march occupied.
Calling mel ong, jiayi and eveleen. tanning/lunch/dinner soon.
Calling jirong and chuhui. Shopping/partying soon.
Calling kok, cass, joy and the click. Gathering soon.
Calling yenling and jorce. lunch soon.
Calling zenas deng, meet up soon.
Calling ptco, catch up session soon.
Calling yuting, trivia/sleepover soon.
Calling buddy, all of the above soon.
Holidays, here to keep me sane.
I'm finding my way back to sanity againthough i don't really know what i am gonna do when i get thereTake a breath and hold on tight, spin around one more timeand gracefully fall back to the arms of graceCause i am hanging on every word you sayand even if you don't wanna speak tonightthat's alright, alright with meCause i want nothing more thanto sit outside heaven's door to hear you breathingit's where i want to be.
BREATHED @ 10:17 PM
Friday, February 23
The deafening silence we hear when someone mentions the issue.
The times we expressed ourselves through the exchange of hostility.
I guess somewhere along the way, we lost the grip.
And we've all chosen to be happier off elsewhere.
You can never understand and so can't i.
BREATHED @ 5:11 PM
Thursday, February 22
Cheap thrill
Epic movie with the buddy was seriously crap.
Stubborn as we are (:
Off to
chun dao he pan after dinner.
We had this teddy deal for cheap thrill sake.
Not very cheap though, the coupons cost like $2.50 per piece now.
We said not to go home empty handed so yea.
Purely for entertainment sake, we went to toss those rings and threw those rubber balls.
Not easy okay, reminisce a little of the funfair days as a kid.
So there, one teddy to bring home.
Thank you buddy (:
BREATHED @ 11:51 PM
Wednesday, February 21
You know its you this time round.
If conversations no longer work, i hope this does.
I just want you to know that i wasn't ever angry at anything you said. If anything, it was the way you always made youself so upset. Because you didn't have to. I've told you umpteen times that things will not be as bad if you took a different perspective to it. Look a little harder and you can see the little blessings within. Why think the worse of everything when in actual they aren't as bad? Why conclude before anything even happens? You said i never see things your way. Perhaps so, but honestly i'm trying. I appreciate the things you do, and i don't doubt the concern you have for me. It goes the same way for me as well. I don't exactly know how else to put it across to you. Maybe because we both don't really know how to express it then.
I've promised to stick around and you know i will.
I just want you to feel better because seriously, things aren't that bad.
Cheer up.
BREATHED @ 2:15 AM
Tuesday, February 20
Too many fucking obligations in life.
BREATHED @ 4:00 PM
tralalalala.
Anyway, mos event was dammit packed.
Saw alot of people again.
From those i miss, those i like to those mood spoilers.
Overall it was good good good.
Cause i had the best company ever.
This bunch of people. i love (:
I don't know about you. But my friends mean almost everything to me.
So anyone who has something to say about them, I'd take it personally.
So it really puzzles me how you can laugh it over when someone said something so horrid about him and call youself a friend still.
BREATHED @ 4:39 AM
Saturday, February 17
the most unhappening shit.
Sometimes situations make you see who are those that you can stick through with.
My mood's like one moment happy one moment not.
I think its making me go nuts.
I've made a resolution and i'll stick to it for good.
It's funny how everyone says the same thing unanimously.
So i guess i wasn't wrong this time round.
So this lovely occassion is here once again.
With all the people mad rushing to buy new clothes.
And everyone's excited about what's going to happen.
While i think about the whats not.
Man, i need some buddy-aphy now.
Will you runaway with me.
BREATHED @ 5:49 PM
Thursday, February 15
Vday at mos was good i'd say.
with good company plus great music.
I like (:
Met the usuals plus faris, weijie and hak.
A lil' high and low mood rides.
But nvm, i'm looking forward to monday with my favourtie babes (:
BREATHED @ 11:41 PM
let the peektures do the talking.
BREATHED @ 11:26 PM
Wednesday, February 14
If you want to runaway, then run.
If you need to avoid, then avoid.
The fact, will always be the fact.
BREATHED @ 3:03 AM
Monday, February 12
Step aside.
Few more days to the most dreaded occassion.
The pretence we have to put up yet again.
Seeing everyone all hyped up, i don't know.
I'm just counting down to the end of it and looking forward to what is coming after that.
16 more days to bangkok trip.Come quick come.
I seriously need to get my mind off all that shit. fast.
I said carefree was what i need to be.I don't want to be accoutable to anyone, i don't want to report my whereabouts everyday.You need to step aside and give me some breathing space.Because right now, every single thing sounds so dammit annoying to me.
BREATHED @ 1:48 AM
Sunday, February 11
Rarr.
You are so annoying.
Go away.
BREATHED @ 1:21 AM
Wednesday, February 7
fiq. call me the reversi master now.
BREATHED @ 11:44 PM
Tuesday, February 6
be overrrr now!
Meeting role play was way better than expected.
My waking up at 6am paid off okay.
2 down and 2 more to go!
Been having those pissy days again.
And i'm really sorry my dearests for yelling and roaring.
Sorry fiq. really am :(Worked alone today and sales was woooo.
work visit by kaisheng (:
And the very sweet bunch who came all the way from vivo (:
Friday is coming. Everyone is planning to get drunk
Nope, not me!
I'm counting down to going bankkok with funkeepoops chew, omarrrr, neek, fiq, joseph and ferfer.
TWENTY TWO more days! (:
BREATHED @ 11:31 PM
Monday, February 5
I NEED TO BITE SOMEONE NOW.
BREATHED @ 3:10 AM
Sunday, February 4
let's all get happy happy
I hate getting affected by the slightest thing you said
Though everytime i said i wouldn't, it never worked.
I'm tired of tyring to make you understand.
Just look a little harder and maybe you will see.
SCHOOL'S GONNA BE OUT IN TWELVE DAYS.
Feb is gonna be crazy i can so foresee!
Crazy partying is going to start.
and thai thai thai thailand trip with the loves is
CONFIRMED.February i love you! (:
BREATHED @ 1:31 PM
Thursday, February 1
sketch em!
Freehand drawing is taking up wayyyyyyy to much time.
TWENTY sketches plus one A1 drawing.
It got us staying in school till the skies turn dark.
Off to bedok inter for dinner.
And the journey home always got me nodding off in the bus.
In fact for two weeks already, the journey anywhere always had me nodding off.
Drew and drew and drew because submission is later.
Now i am finaaly done.
You people need to stop dissing my drawings! RARR.
Some are really ugly, like that fat ballerina and hawk/hen (?) and scissors.
But nevermind! Just nice twenty for submission tomorrow will do!
I like my seahorse and mosquito and dragonfly though! (:
Heh.
BREATHED @ 1:08 AM
