ashtray of kisses

Wednesday, January 31

With all these going on.
Sometimes i feel like i'm losing myself.

I'm seriously drained.

BREATHED @ 1:45 AM

Monday, January 29

random la la las

The phone needs to undergo serious repair works.
I'm saddened. All my contacts are now in buddy's phone.
Apocalypto after that. Sadistic show it was.
But buddy and i were laughing at parts.
Kukulkhan. Buddy refused to eat mee with me.
A lift home from buddy and friends.
But cabby was fucked.

**
Midnight movie with fer fiq neek and dann the next day after work.
Ghost tunnel was a lil' crappy. But still, i suck at horror movies.
There were a few scary parts alright!
Cuppaged and billiard after that.
Slacked, cabbed home with the rest at four.
Many many plans ahead, and yes we shall carry all of them out.

WINNIEFER HALIM. MUHAMMAD TAUFIQ BIN SARIF. NICHOLAS ENG. EDMUND LIM. DANNETH TAN. CHEW FUNG WEE. SHERYL YEO. DAPHNE NG. OMAR ABDULLAH.
I lOVE ALL OF YOU MANY MANYS

You people put many many smiles on my face everyday (:

BREATHED @ 2:49 AM

Friday, January 26

My 1am perks

BREATHED @ 1:11 AM

Thursday, January 25

I realise the days, though with the shit stuff project madness going on.
I've real so much more relaxed. I guess the reason's obvious.
Facing projects, late nights in school is definitely so much better than handling the other.
I don't get why does it have to happen over and over again.
I realise i can't even figure out what upsets me anymore.
The way you cry over the same issue over and over again
The way you doubt that i even care. I do but so what.
I don't know and i don't want to know.
For now i just want to shut my ears and not hear anything else.
A few exchange of words and it can get me fucking upset in the early morning.
I really hate this.
Carefree for now.

BREATHED @ 5:28 PM

Wednesday, January 24

Smells like teen spirit!

Everybody mourn for the death of my phone today.
Someone lend me a spare phone puhlease!
School was crap. Cabbed there and project meeting lasted 10 mins?
Lt21-ed with the rest and finished up the RM report.
Haha, edmund and nicholas are my source of entertainment today.
Especially edm, totally crap.
I realise i get amused super easily nowadays. Hmmms.
Kungfu Mahjong-ed with neek, edm, fiq and fer after that.
That show is nonsense. Haha, but got us laughing like mad.
Back home to the project rush and first presentation starts tomorrow!
Bahhh. Joyce wu needs to mark me up for all the small talks i had with her!
Twenty freehand sketches due on thursday and i completed NONE.
So dead. so so so so dead.

BREATHED @ 1:44 AM

Tuesday, January 23

byebye to jan in 8 days!

It's 4:00am in the morning and projects are still on the way.
Comm skills later on and bahh its my turn to present!
I hate hate hate that subjec. such a waste of time.
2 more reports, 2 more IJs and 4 more presentations.
Plus the end sem tests.
Then school's officially out.
The party mood is back so bad. So come feb come!
A random fact i learnt from the funkeepoops today.
Potato chips taste better after being put in the freezer!

Told you never to promise me anything
because i figured you'd never be able to keep them.
Now that you've proven me right.
Applauds for you.

It's EIGHT more days to the gig! (:

BREATHED @ 3:59 AM

Sunday, January 21

Work today made me realise how low my tolerance level has become.
I met the most irritating pair of kids today.
Made me wanna hang them up high and smack their asses real hard.
Really annoying.
But work visits really do cheer me up (:
Saturdays without fail. Heh.
Thanks to pig, buddy with the pocky, alvin, neek, fiq and danneth who dropped by.
Went to classic and they were nice enough to walk me all the way home after that.

People come and go in your life.That's why those who stay, are really important to me.
And sometimes i just feel so torn in between. It's not like you ever told me to choose. But seeing both sides not get along, i don't know.Learn, understand and accept you said, i just didn't realise it came with a choice of whom to direct it to.I really really hope you understand where i am coming from.Because to them, they appreciate you for being there for me at times when they fail to cheer me up. They talk about you in your absence, about how they wished they had a friend like you. I just thought you'd know and see what i'm trying to say. I really really hope you understand that i never was taking sides because all of you mean the world to me.

BREATHED @ 2:12 AM

Saturday, January 20

Let's catch the flow.

Tertiary fling 4 yesterday.
Thanks to the cousin who gave us vip entries again (:
TF4 with many many people.
Fer, shirley, wanting, anna, ryn, buddy, alvin, alex, edmund, neek, fiq and danneth.
Saw the usual people. Then there was ling whom i didn't recognise!
Took me 10 seconds after she called me before i went "OMG"
The songs were pretty alright. Fer was hot hot hot.
On the whole, it was good (:
But still, sorry to alvin buddy and ryn!

People, we should do this more often (:
Come feb come!

**

Woke up at a late 4pm today and met buddy in town for a movie.
Gridiron gang. I give it four touchdowns out of five!
It's good people. Go catch it.
A very touching real life story.

I will not trade you for them.
Football- The game of life.

BREATHED @ 12:38 AM

Thursday, January 18

We'll all take this bumpy ride together.

18 days into january and i must say, january you really suck.
Been losing my cool alot and that's bad.
I don't like to be depended on and i don't like to be questioned.
I don't know.
I need to stick that one big note to sleep early.
Average sleeping time is 5am everyday. Dammit.
Sleeping early = less problems and better health.
People, please remind me to hit the bed if you see me online late!

Stay strong and everything will be alright.
Because the way you're handling it is that amazing.
Believe, and everything will be alright.
Please take care.

BREATHED @ 12:29 AM

Tuesday, January 16

The sky highs and the bottom lows.

Last week was packed, rushed with sleepless nights and project dues.
Saturday, slept 3 hours then headed to work on sunday morning.
After work, project rush all the way till 5am.
Then kathie picked xj then me up at 6 plus and tabao-ed mac breakfast to school.
No sleep at all, with deadlines at 12pm and cart assessment at 2pm.
Late submission! and the stupid wind that got all our stuff flying around.
Got everyone pissy and me screaming at almost everyone. So sorry!
But to the girl who hogged the printer because she was printing pictures of her and her bf kissing on the beach!!! Fuck you. Caused us our late submission!
Still, thanks to those who came and support Aglaia.
Especially to buddy and alex who made their long trip down to tp (:
Pool-ed at parkway after that with buddy alex and alvin.
Reached home near midnight and collasped on the bed.
At least, now its ten more days to the next submission.
People lets relax a little first.

Backtrack to Friday.
* * * * * * * * * * * * *

Affandi's birthday. Where else but georges.
It was crazy. Sixteen people. More than half drunk and high.
With the puking and chasing and shouting and dancing.
It was highly amusing for those sober.
Birthday boy was super wasted. Haha.
Shan't say who was wasted and who wasn't.
Pictures will tell (: (Click to enlarge)
Two hundred over pictures that night. Haha.

The must have birthday kisses.

This bunch of people are the LOVE.
What's school without them (:

P.S: Thank you to buddy who gave me a work visit with my favourite strawberry pocky! (:

BREATHED @ 11:42 PM

Friday, January 12

You question why can i be so nonchalent about things.
If keeping quiet about things is being nonchalent to you.
I guess i've got nothing to say.
Because the truth it, it hurts me to see you cry today.
But have you ever bothered about the times
i cried myself to sleep thinking about how things turn out this way.
If this hurts you that much, it's hurting me even more.
Because i don't throw hurtful comments right at you like how you do.
For the times you midjudged me,
for the times you pushed me away
for the times you forget the simplest thing.
How do you expect me to tell you, that you're the closest thing to me.

BREATHED @ 2:24 AM

Thursday, January 11

Let's all learn some healthy tips!

So the CRM report is down.
I bet you didn't know this group could be productive! Haha.
IMP is done.
A&P on the way.
C'mon c'mon. Projects you gotta end!
Freehand drawing tomorrow.
I need to add another new year resolution, that is to stay for the entire lesson.
Count the number of times me and fiq left halfway. I don't remember!
Okay, need to hand up these doodlings tomorrow.
It's not meant to look like that, but can do la huh.

I can't draw eyes and noses for nuts.
Anyway, i got a little moody today. Sorry people!
Its all alright now.
Quick fact of the day: Press your right fourth toe to relieve neck aches. (I quote alex)
So there, two stupid people pressing toes in front of the screen.
Picture that.
Haha.

BREATHED @ 3:23 AM

Monday, January 8

Find your happy trigger!

When you can't find an available computer in the labs
And when school is crowded for once
Or when you see pimples breaking out on everybody's face.
You know project deadlines are nearing.
With projects come conflicts.
Seeing people falling out, groups splitting up.
Hmmm, this is interesting.
Although, the current group is pretty much slack.
And us always failing to meet at the arranged time.
I'd say this is much much much better than the last.

Anyway, i just want to tell you.
Things may look bad for you, and give you every reason to give up.
Just hang in there and everything will change for the better.
It may not be soon, but it will eventually.
Because unlike things here, you people do care for one another.
Don't always look at the worse of situations.
I see the effort you put in and so will they.
count your little blessing in life (:

'Cause they were trying to take control of you
That couldn't be, you need to be free of this confusion
You don't need a guilt trip, because you're so over it
And when it all falls apart, just know that i'll still be here.

BREATHED @ 5:34 PM

Sunday, January 7

January i hate you.

No work on sunday is heaven.
Slept in till the wake up calls came in.
I wanna kill the air con servicing people.
They totally killed my air con and it was so hot hot hot!
Anyway, i did the RM report and commskills reflective journal.
Hahaha. 2 tasks accomplished.
People, start doing your projects!
I see alot of DUE! in my daily planner.
I need to see more PARTY! and MEETUPS!
January- the project and presentation month.
Please end soon!
Deadlines are nearing. Nor project rush anymore.
It's officially time to slog our asses off.

Anyway, tertiary fling on the 18th.
People, time to de-stress!
Those i texted, you all better come.

BREATHED @ 11:50 PM

Friday, January 5

buuuuuuddddddddyyyyyyyyyyyy

Tutorial was so short today.
Travelled all the way to dover to find the buddy today.
Thanks to kat who gave me a joyride to lavender.
If not i think i'd die on the long journey there.
Reached SP at 4 and the buddy came to pick me up.
Huge place, walked to the business school and i felt like dying already.
It was like up up up the hills.
Saw their project and it wasn't as bad as what buddy described.
Or perhaps it was just alex's psycho-ing skills. Haha.
Towned after that. Taking bus 106 was like a rollercoaster ride.
Dinner at shih lin. Man, i really hate oysters.
Watched spirit of the victims and fell asleep halfway.
Got woken up at this scary part where the spirit shouted suddenly.
The show was scary shit. I suck at watching horror movies.
Bus 14 home and we sat beside this guy who was happily digging his nose and rubbing it onto the seats just beside buddy. Haha.
A day out with buddy today is like a day out with buddy anyday.
I love my buddy (:
And come 15th its back to you to travel from dover to tampines. Muaha.
Anyway, people from the west. You need to dress up more more more!

BREATHED @ 11:34 PM

AGLAIA.

So today was the stall operation day.
Got up at early early 645am.
Thank you to the wake up calls!
Reached school, ran up and down, tired like what.
Thank you to eug who had last minute fever.
So there, three girls pushing the heavy. It was hilarious.
Sales was not as good as expected, but alright.
Thanks to people who came to support! (:
Second operation day on 15th.
Buddy is coming :D
The rest, please come and buy something if you have not!

BREATHED @ 2:19 AM

Thursday, January 4

I'm angry that i can't use it for my assessment tomorrow.
But then, that's alright because i can find something to replace it somehow.
What upsets me is that, you didn't even ask me beforehand.
And it's a gift from overseas and is something really precious to me.
Which apparently you failed to figure.
It was sitting on the table like how it always did.
And you fucking threw it away.
Thank you so much.

BREATHED @ 12:36 AM

Wednesday, January 3

AGLAIA

TP people! Please support my stall on Thursday! (:

BREATHED @ 4:06 AM

its all about hypocrisy.

So i woke up really late today for project.
Was suppose to meet at 12 but i only woke up when eug called me at 1230.
I have to remember my new year resolutions!
Project meeting went fast. Ended by three.
Buddy was nice to lug his lappy all the way here to let me watch saw3.
This one's not as nice. But ya, i need to watch it again.
We finally carried out our hokkien mee deal.
Shopped around with buddy for his presentation wear.
And the black black hammer was funny.
Thanks to buddy who cheered me up today.

You said before, it runs in the blood. Yes i totally get it.
Somethings never change. Like, how the phone i lent you lost its ability to function suddenly.
Then what now, a functioning disc suddenly becomes faulty again. Just that this time, better still, you don't even know if it is mine or not. Zero sense of responsibility. You can still come and be sarcastic about me wanting a faulty disc back. When you make no effort to provide a solution, which in the first place is rare that it would actually be feasible anyway. I don't care if you are reading this right now. You need to learn some basic sense of responsibility.

BREATHED @ 12:11 AM

Tuesday, January 2

Project deadlines are nearing.
Inidividual journals are due.
Things are home are really fucked.
I really need a break.
I know the amount of concern you show, i don't know how to thank you.
Still, there are limits to things i can say.
I'm sorry for yelling.
I just hope that you all understand.
With so much happening, i really need that little breathing space that's left.

BREATHED @ 3:39 AM

Monday, January 1

Simplicity is beauty.

So the plan to stay home on countdown day failed.
Met fer, fiq, edmund and nicholas at marina for steamboat dinner.
Buses were packed, so we walked there.
Thank you to buddy for getting seats for us so we didn't have to wait at all.
Left for georges at about eleven. Smart move.
All cabs were hired. Tried calling cabs for an hour plus.
Still no cab.
Till it struck twelve and the fireworks came on.
Five stranded people wished one another happy new year unwillingly by the roadside.
Walked back to the station and we finally got a cab.
Cab fare was dammit twenty bucks.
Traffic congestion. Reached georges at almost one.
Geroges was good. Live band and all.
Soon the rest came plus funky, affandi and huifang.
Black labelled and the unopened 42 below.
Everyone was getting tipsy and high.
Sorry to the dearests i left early.
The usual hug goodbyes to all and walked home.
New year, very different this year.
Simple but yet enjoyable (:

BREATHED @ 10:48 PM